... oh yes it is a privat task.
What if I am healthier now than the last half a century due to new medication. What if I would have had them 40years ago? Would I made my studies to a diploma? Would my marriage been still alive? Would I had hold my well paid job? I did never payed a lot of money for alcoholic drinks to steer my mood into a more or less happier direction, I do only smoke good Caribbian cigars - not being dependive in cigarrettes for a big budget a month for smell & smoke. But am I really happier than drinking smokers or smoking drinkers?
Now my new pills do work - I am here and can "suddenly" realize that this "aggressive pile" isn't aggressive at all - it is made from books, drawings, a pair of cmpasses box and can of pencils. Now aggressive Part in it - yilI can touch and Bring it into some structure without burning my fingers. This new Point of View structure is very helpfull and peacefull. I very often do look back on my lost years, my UFOs*, missed possibilities and burnt time I'll never get back again - becoming sad and sadlier...
Shaking my head in my 30sq.yard flat and trying not to become deeply depressive right now...
What if I start to change my course now - not staring onto my own wake of tears?
*U_n_F_inished O_bjects
What if I am healthier now than the last half a century due to new medication. What if I would have had them 40years ago? Would I made my studies to a diploma? Would my marriage been still alive? Would I had hold my well paid job? I did never payed a lot of money for alcoholic drinks to steer my mood into a more or less happier direction, I do only smoke good Caribbian cigars - not being dependive in cigarrettes for a big budget a month for smell & smoke. But am I really happier than drinking smokers or smoking drinkers?
Now my new pills do work - I am here and can "suddenly" realize that this "aggressive pile" isn't aggressive at all - it is made from books, drawings, a pair of cmpasses box and can of pencils. Now aggressive Part in it - yilI can touch and Bring it into some structure without burning my fingers. This new Point of View structure is very helpfull and peacefull. I very often do look back on my lost years, my UFOs*, missed possibilities and burnt time I'll never get back again - becoming sad and sadlier...
Shaking my head in my 30sq.yard flat and trying not to become deeply depressive right now...
What if I start to change my course now - not staring onto my own wake of tears?
*U_n_F_inished O_bjects
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