Hey Donnie, depression is a terrible struggle! Don't try to fight it on your own, get help. I suffered a traumatic brain injury in 1998 and struggle with life since, I finally was forced to get help, one step away from ending it all, and I thank God every day since. See your doctor and get a referral to a psychologist, he/she can help. I have taken meds since and they help, once you get use to them. You will be able to enjoy life again. Stay with your ship modelling, it is a great form of positive therapy.
Bob