Hi to all members of SOS, especially administrators and moderators, i will keep this as brief as i can about my actions last week NO EXCUSES PROVIDED just facts THAT DOES NOT EXEMPT ME FROM WHAT I DID AND SAID,,, here is it in a nutsheel and through the kindness and the caring of a member here who took the time to let me know in a novel way and it worked i have a lot of physical problems this was not a physical problem there is a word for it called a NERVOUS BREAKDOWN witch i never thought would happen to me GUESS WHAT i tend to want to escape reality it is my way of coping i tend to bury myself in my own dream world now it is ship modeling i bury my self in it totaly where nothing else gets in, that is just me here is what happened my children reconized something was wrong before the SOS BOMB no matter how much you hide from what is happening in the world today it does not work so scared to death about the virus, scared of my daughter loosing her buisness and my son-in-laws, my dearest daughter-in=law being a nurse in neworleans first responder scared to death of all this started my HAPPY PILLS AFTER NOT NEEDING THEM FOR ALMOST A YEAR AT THE SAME dose bad thing coupled wit NO SLEEP FOR 2 DAYS, WAS THE PERFECT STORM an explosion that was waiting to happen, and again no excuse, there is no excuse for words and thougts to friends who did not deserve the. THANK YOU SOS. Don PS I HAVE ANOTHER MESSAGE TO POST AND forgivness to ask for the person will not be named, tomorrow for that one. Don